Friday, October 25, 2013

All My Life I Wasn't Trying To Get On The Highway; I Was Wondering Which Way To Go.

I was re-reading an old post from a year and half ago this morning... It's pretty incredible how much can change over time. At the time of the original post, I was starting to see my outfits promoted through channels which were fat-positive and more focused on fat bodies, and I think I hit the panic button. I wasn't used to reading blogs like that, and I was freaking out... I thought to myself: "Does the world think I am fat? Is that all that they see?"

When I began reading the comments, it was amazing to see the discourse the post spurred. I was more insecure in my identity at the time, and it felt like a personal attack. I couldn't fathom being called "fat" after working for years to mend the pain and self-doubt that had been caused by that word. It was really scary and new, and my reaction was to publicly state my fears (or at least try). Was that messed up? Yes, of course it was. But mistakes are an inevitably of being a silly mortal. Now I revel in the fact that I'm able to be a "unconventional" representation of personal style in both mainstream and alternative avenues (Tumbl-o-sphere, I'm looking at you). I'm loving the communities I get to be a part of.

Not to say that I am in a perfect mental state at the moment, but the past month has been very introspective for me. I was feeling quite blue this past spring, and even into summer, just confused, discouraged and lost. At the risk of sounding like a corny sap (which I kind of am not exactly inaccurate), I think that am really starting to settle into my own skin. I'm finally relaxing. My identity is not just a singular, it's not just one thing, or a even a binary. Yes, I am a woman, one who is young and African-Canadian. Yep, I'm a blogger, and have spent large quantities of the past 5.5 years awkwardly figuring out my shit via the internet. Oh, and I'm a chubster too. I would even say that I am fat. And that's quite alright with me. I'm realizing that many of adjectives that I associate with myself (femme, feminist, body positive, beautiful, black, vintage lover, sarcastic, funny, loud, cheesy, singer, passionate, caring, loyal...the list goes on) are not the only things that define me. They aren't the sole source of my value. Sometimes elements of my personality and self are at odds with each other, but complexity and paradox are some of the most beautiful things about being human. I'm getting used to the fact that I will always be flawed. Go figure...only took 24 years to get here!

I've come the conclusion that I feel best about myself when I am able to balance my creative expression with time spent with people who love and support me. So that's what I am working on now: creative work that makes me proud, and surrounding myself with people who are open minded and support me.

On a related note, these minor epiphanies are part of why I decided to finally get my septum done. I've wanted the piercing for about 3 years, but for various reasons (including rules against facial piercing at my former workplace) I didn't actually follow through with it until now. Of course the piercing is largely an aesthetic choice; I love the way it looks, and I seldom wear jewelry. I think it adds visual interest without overwhelming me or having to put thought into it when I'm getting dressed. An easy way to adorn myself. But it is also serving as an outward signifier of significant change within myself, which is pretty rad.

This post may just end up sounding like a convulted, corny and confusing journal entry, but I'm okay with that. Just wanted to keep y'all in the loop.

the photo is from my instagram.

Thursday, October 24, 2013

Uniquely Yours!

This week, ModCloth asked me to participate in their "Uniquely Yours" campaign on Polyvore. ModCloth recently launched two private labels, Myrtlewood and Bea & Dot.  The lines are based on highly covetable vintage styles and available in sizes XS-4X (a size range which is awesome!).

It's been a joy to watch ModCloth grow over the years, and these private labels exemplify how they've created a commited community of customers. Even in 2013, it's difficult to find brands that carry items in a broad spectrum of sizes; typically brands are limited to solely straight sized or only carry plus sized items. I'm really excited to see that ModCloth has a commitment to being inclusive, instead of shying away from a plus sized customer base. The fact that the pieces are flippin' adorable doesn't hurt either.

The Sacramento Style skirt just begs for an outfit suitable for fun loving adventures with your best pals! I couldn't say no to that unicorn sweater...
Uniquely Yours!

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Maybe We Can Get Away.

In mid-August, Mom and I took a trip down to Seattle for a night. I wish it could have been a bit longer, but it was so lovely to escape daily worries and responsibilities, even if it was only for 36 hours. The other great thing about the trip was a chance to hang out with my mama (who is a pretty awesome lady, in my humble opinion). I don't see her as much since I live away from home, so I appreciate the chances we have to hang out. Click through for more from our trip...

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Still, I Never Want It To Go.

...I think the changing of the seasons is sparking a change in me. Stay tuned.

Vintage La Chateau dress (from Community Thrift) | DIY bootstrap tie | Thrifted leather belt
Front and Company AA blouse, leather Converse chucks  | Joe Fresh gray tights
Urban Renewal trench (old) | Gifted hat

Friday, October 11, 2013

Not All That Glitters Is Gold.

Last Thursday night I hopped on down to Gastown with Dana to check out one of my favorite local lines: Broken Promises by Karen La. Although I may be deeply biased since Karen is such a lovely lady on a personal level, there is no denying the wealth of talent that she possesses. The party took place at Cavalier, a new independent jeweler located in Gastown which prides itself as a one stop shop. It even houses a repair shop and the option for custom made pieces, if it tickles your fancy.

Broken Promises collaborated with Cavalier with a seven peice, limited run capsule collection. The "In Line" collection derived inspiration from the sharp, minimal construction of MACBA, Barcelona's Museum of Contemporary Art. Launched simultaneously with an Army of Rosokz capsule collection, the pair of jewelers created a collaborative piece; a stunning sterling silver cuff which is nothing short of a showstopper. The eye-catching and sharp lines of Broken Promises are perfectly paired with the incredible (and meticulous) engraving of Army of Rokosz. I'll admit I've got some serious lust for these if only my bank account allowed for it!

outfit photos by Dana.

Thrifted leather tie, skirt, belt | Monki hat
Front & Company shirt, vintage boots | Joe Fresh tights | Urban Renewal trench coat


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